Mission Statement

RESOLUTIONS is my resolution to live life fully—to travel, to face fears, to be fit, to reacquaint myself with the child inside of me, to remember the world’s treasures and to give some of it back.

It’s my resolution to live.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

The Beach and Pizza


Watching a beach sunset likely falls somewhere in everyone’s life-to-do list, and there’s a good chance it’s been checked off most of them, time and time again. In truth, most of us have done it at some point in our lives. It’s peaceful; one of the most tranquil of life’s pleasures is the sound of waves washing up to the sand while seagulls caw. It’s meditative; all of the day’s thoughts and worries seem to flow away with the water as it rolls back to sea. It’s romantic; few things compare to tasting the lips of the person you love as the earth’s candle goes out around you.

But I would venture to guess that a lot of us don’t do it just to do it. We don’t take the time to sit on the beach and watch the sun set behind the ocean or the lake “just because.” It tends to be part of the bigger picture rather than the picture itself. I was definitely one who fell into this category. I’ve seen many a beach sunset, most by accident—being in the right place at the right time. And those that were intentional were meant to be a part of something else.

I added it to my list of resolutions because I didn’t want to do it by accident and I didn’t want there to be a reason I was on the beach other than to take the time to watch the sun set. It fell under my search for tranquility. I could just sit and breathe in the salt, listen to the ocean, and watch the day end in peace.

The day that I decided to go to the beach had been a lovely one. My sister was in town; my father had the day off from work; and my mother, knowing I have resolutions to complete, suggested we watch the sunset together as a family. We don’t get to spend as much time together as we once did; my sister and I are off living our lives as “grown ups.” It had been years since we had sat on a beach towel, our toes wiggling in the sand, together.

And so, despite my initial decision to spend the sunset alone, I decided it would be more meaningful with my family there—not just because I would be in the company of the people I admire most in this world, but for an opportunity to spend a beautiful day doing something that made me remember a beautiful childhood. The sunset was still the bigger picture; its frame would just be constructed of family time and memory making.

We left from my house, bags of beach towels and soda/pop stuffed into the trunk, and headed toward Malibu. But first, a food stop. We had to eat, of course. Dinner time and sunset seem so hand-in-hand. We got some pizza (and Mexican for my darling sister who craved a “run to the border”), climbed back into the jeep, and made our way up through the spiraling canyons that would eventually give way to the one and only Pacific Coast Highway.

As we got to the top, mist settled around us, blanketing the sun from view. Darn it. Come back, sunshine! Come back! It would not be easy to watch the sun set behind the ocean if the clouds were hiding her. I could only hope that once we made our descent and reached PCH, the fog would lift and sunshine would glisten once more. As we swerved through the canyon, I crossed my fingers and balanced the box of pizza against the seat cushion. At least I could save dinner.

Once we reached PCH, I knew that any hope I had of the sun coming back out was gone. We parked the car, filled up the meter with coins, and grabbed the food and bags, marching our way toward the sand.

I flicked off my flip-flops and stepped onto the beach.

“Oh My God, it’s so cold,” my sister said, squirming. She had just read my mind. “I’m so used to the sand being hot.”

I laughed and nodded. She was right. Usually we had to race across the beach like we were walking over hot coal. But it had turned into a suddenly icy, hazy day by the ocean. No such luck. Oh how I missed the hot coal feel of sand on my skin in that instant.


We went as close toward the water as was reasonable; the fear of the ocean swallowing our pizza stopped us from going too far. The blanket was spread and the food was placed in the center. The four of us settled into each corner, keeping our eyes toward the sea. The only other inhabitants were straggling runners and a family of birds colonizing the sand a few feet from us.




Dinner was consumed amongst chattering teeth (it was dang chilly) and belly-shaking laughter (we are dang funny), all the while sneaking peeks
at our watches to make sure we didn’t miss sunset. After cleaning up, we explored the beach—my sister walked around in search of shells and I snapped pictures of my family, the ocean, the birds. When the water rushed up to my feet, it felt like a million frozen needles piercing me; but when it surged back, the sand felt like calming, grainy dough against my skin. I couldn’t help but laugh, thinking how the sand I had thought so cold an hour earlier was now the thing that soothed me. The mysteries of nature are so fascinating.


When it was time to “watch the sunset”, we settled back onto the blanket and stared out toward the ocean. I smiled. We sat in the shape of a frame, literally. Each of us in our respective corners. And the sea, the sand, the sun were the picture

We waited until it was officially “sunset”, and though we couldn’t see the sun actually go down behind the ocean, we sat together, shivering in the cold and sharing our moment of tranquility with nature. And with one another.


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Monday, May 17, 2010

The Big Easy


Blend the beat of drums with a splash of VooDoo rituals and European horns; then mix in some Church music and a sprinkle of Saloon sounds, and from that recipe, jazz is born—in the Big Easy—dating back to the late 1800s.

Prior to the Civil War in America, New Orleans was the only place where slaves could own their own drums. They thumped their instruments, sung with harmony, and danced to the rhythms that tasted of freedom. Once slavery had been abolished, jazz grew stronger, evolving into sounds that got people off their feet, to dance and to come alive.

Those who know me well know that I have a mild obsession with the era of Slavery in America. I love to read books and watch movies that take place during that period. It’s such a horrible time in our history, such an immense moment of shame; yet from the cruelties of slavery, so many heroes were born, so much culture was planted, and so many types of music were created—beats that, to this day, make our heads bounce, our feet tap, and our hearts find their tempo.

And so what better place to go to learn about jazz—how it’s made, how it’s played—than New Orleans?

I entered into this specific journey very poorly prepared. I only knew that I wanted to take a lesson. Why? I’m not very musically inclined, and so I wanted to work on that. I know when I like a song because it will stir my emotions or make me want to dance. Often, the writer in me sees stories playing out in my head when I listen to music. The sound, the story, and the flow that are brought to life by a song fill up empty spaces in my soul. Jazz in particular has the ability to vibrate deep into the depths of those listening to it.

The next obvious question would be what type of jazz? Dancing, singing, playing an instrument? I had no idea. I was interested in all of it. I looked things up on the internet and searched for instructors in the New Orleans area, but came up flat. I wasn’t sure any of the people I found would be keen on a one-time session. But, I had to do something. So, I decided to book a hotel. It was the least I could do before figuring out how to take a lesson.

I made my reservation the old fashioned way—I actually called the hotel. No online deals. I’m not even really sure why I chose to do it that way; but it turned out to answer my question.

The reservation specialist asked me if I was coming into town for the French Quarter Festival.

“Uh—no,” I said. “I don’t even know what that is.”

Silence on the other end. Then a chuckle and an obvious sigh of condescension. “It’s the jazz festival in the French Quarter. All sorts of jazz bands performing in the streets,” she explained. “I thought that was why you were coming that particular weekend.”

What?!?!?! The stars have aligned?!?!?! Again?!?!? I randomly picked a weekend to go to New Orleans to take a jazz lesson and it so happened to be French Quarter Festival? What better place to learn about jazz than on the streets where it all began?

“Well in that case,” I said. “Yes, I am coming into town for the French Quarter Festival.”

When I arrived in New Orleans, I could feel the buzz and verve in the air from the start. As the shuttle stopped in the streets, dropping each of us at our respective hotels, I marveled at the people pausing to snap pictures in the middle of the road—oblivious to the traffic they caused; the sound of trumpets and drums merging together with the hum of laughter, and drifting through the air like an invisible compass to the city; and the smell of jambalya and gumbo swimming past my nose. It almost felt like the city itself was a living, breathing being; and we were all tiny creatures, enjoying our symbiotic relationship, as we inched across it.

There were booths set up through the streets, barricades put up to stop cars from getting through, and jazz instruments lined up with performers behind them. Every few feet that I walked, I heard different music and sounds; although, all had the same familiar beat of jazz vibrating through them. In some places, people danced in the middle of the street beside the band; in other places, they simply crowded around and clapped at the end of each song. Magicians wowed with cards and tricks; painters showed off their canvases; and voodoo shamans hovered around their amulets and charms.

I walked for some time before I built up the courage to go talk to the different performers. I told them about this blog, asked them about their instruments, and listened to them share their stories. Each fascinated me with their tales.

I met a man who told me he had been playing in the streets of New Orleans for twenty years—day and night, he sat with his guitar and his trumpet and performed.

“I’ve seen so many faces come through here,” he said. “All them faces have the same thing in common: a smile with life behind it. I like to think it’s my songs doing that for them.”

There was a band of young men in their twenties. They had known one another since childhood, and had grown up playing music together.

“You gotta bop your head,” one of them said to me. I bopped with him, doing my best to follow his lead. “Yeah, you got it. Feel the music in your body, and it’ll flow out through your hands.” He wiggled his fingers across his drums. “And out through your voice.” He bellowed.

A married couple sat on “their corner” and performed songs about betrayal and magical spells. They told me that each of them had been pursuing the dream of becoming a jazz musician since grade school. It was jazz that brought the two of them together. And now, with fifty years of wedded bliss behind them, they had a strong following of fans, all stopping to buy their CD and drop cash donations into their guitar casing.

The one thing that ALL of the musicians had in common? Outside of the obvious (jazz)? None of them would let me hold their instruments. They taught me the types of beats, the various scales, and the part of jazz history that meant the most to them. But when it came to letting me hold their instruments, they all said no…..which, of course they would and I understood. After all, it’s as though I asked a complete stranger if I could hold his baby. He may want to tell me all of the cute things his baby does, when his baby took his first step, and how very much he loves his baby; but he would never put that child in a stranger’s hands.

I took pictures and filmed their performances. However, without the proper permission, I do not feel comfortable posting them on the blog. But I want to thank all of them for teaching me about jazz—in particular, New Orleans jazz. It was such an interesting experience. And now, when I hear the sound of bass drums and trumpets, I’m taken back to all of the friends I made in the Big Easy, and all of the lessons they taught me.


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