Mission Statement

RESOLUTIONS is my resolution to live life fully—to travel, to face fears, to be fit, to reacquaint myself with the child inside of me, to remember the world’s treasures and to give some of it back.

It’s my resolution to live.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Rain Dance

Rain Dance (rān/ dan(t)s, ˈdän(t)s)

Definition

—noun

: a ritualistic dance performed to invoke rain and protect the harvest.[1]


Last week it rained in California. And the rains—or monsoons really—could not have come at a more apropos time. First, we really needed it. The water reserve level is at an all time low, lingering in the “yellow zone” (far from blue, or full; and far too close to red, or empty).

There are constant reminders and tips on the radio on how to save water—the right time to sprinkle the yard, the shortest way to shower, the most effective way to sweep the driveway (broom, not hose people!). So yay for the rain! California was thirsty and the rain helped quench some of that thirst.

Second, it was a great first resolution to fulfill—a gentle transition into this new world that I’ve created for myself, if you will. But I’m just as new to this world as you are. So, it took a couple tries before I was satisfied with blogging about my rain dance.

Take 1.

The day started off at a tearoom for lunch, specifically the Scarlet Tea Room in Pasadena, an adorable restaurant that does tea the old fashioned European way. This was my first visit there; my friend, Jen’s second or third. We picked a peach-flavored black tea, Persian Nectar (of course, right? What else could a Persian woman choose?); ate our scones, with raspberry jam, lemon curd sauce, and whipped cream; chose our crust-free sandwiches; and ended the course with petit dessert and strawberries romanoff. The initial plan was to walk around Pasadena after teatime and then go to the beach to watch the sunset—that was supposed to be the first resolution I completed.

But as carpe diem would have it, as we finished lunch, the rain clouds stitched together and the sky turned absurdly dark for 3 pm. Walking around Pasadena was out. And sitting on the beach in the rain to watch the sunset didn’t sound very appealing to either one of us. So we decided to leave. I’d watch the sunset another day when the rains stopped.

And then it happened. My moment of spontaneity.

“I could just dance in the rain instead,” I said.

“Do you want to?” Jen asked. “I could take the pictures.”

I shrugged. Wasn’t that the point of this blog? To do the things I don’t normally do? To be willing to break out of the shell I’ve locked myself into? To live? I mean, I wrote it in my mission statement, after all. I promised it in my first entry.

“Yup,” I said. “Let’s do it.”

We pulled over and walked down the street in search of the “right place” to dance. I let Jen choose—and of course she picked a small cobble stoned patch in the median of the road where everyone could see me as they drove by.


I ran across the street to the designated location. And danced. While Jen snapped pictures, videotaped and laughed, I danced. I even sang. After all, there was no music, and I felt that I needed music in order to dance properly. The song I chose? “Dancing in the Rain.” What else would I possibly choose?

And I have to tell you all….

It was sooo much fun! And liberating! It felt great to just live in the moment, to not care who saw or what anyone thought, and to boogy-woogy under the rain.

Except it was only sprinkling.

And there was no music (if you watch the video, you will understand that I’m no singer and my singing shouldn't count as music)

So came along Take 2.

I was having lunch with my parents at their house. It was POURING. Literally. Like someone had unzipped the sky right where it was holding back a river. Pouring, typhoon wet. And as we sat around the kitchen table enjoying our lunch and the warmth that a good home-heating system provides on a cold, wet day, one of the chairs in the backyard flopped over. It must be saved, I decided. And so must the other swivel rocker chairs where I read books when the weather is sunny and more California-esque. So I “braved the storm” to move my old friends out of harm’s way.

As I carried the chairs to the loggia and pressed them against the wall, carpe diem nudged me again. Dance now. It’s actually REALLY raining, and adding music would be so easy.

The chair saving went on hold in order to fulfill my resolution. Take deux. Of course, by then, the rain had slowed—not to a sprinkle, but also not a cyclone.

I turned on the radio. The song playing? T.I’s “Dead and Gone” (featuring Justin Timberlake). What better choice than that? How much more appropriate can it get? A song on the radio about rebirth, just as I’m getting ready to dance in the rain.

Oh how the stars have aligned.

And so I danced. Happily. With the rain slapping against my face. And it felt just as liberating as the first time.

Now I have my own personal definition of rain dance.Rain Dance (rān/dan(t)s, ˈdän(t)s)

Definition

—noun

:the first step in harvesting a new life. [2]



[1] Combined definition from Dictionary.com and Wikipedia

[2] Me

Friday, January 15, 2010

Resolutions

“Dance like no one is watching, love like you'll never be hurt, sing like no one is listening, live like it's heaven on earth.” –William Purkey

Each year we make resolutions. Lose weight, exercise more, be nicer to the in-laws, organize the garage, yell less at the kids, eat more fruit and not as much chocolate. But let’s be honest. Most resolutions fizzle out by mid February. Maybe some go as long as April, almost none to August, and by December we’re making the same promises as the year before only we add to it by swearing, up and down, that “this year will be the year I really do it.”

At least that’s what I do. Guilty as charged. I don’t follow through with my New Years Resolutions. I’m a New Years Half-Ass Resolver.

So it got me thinking. Why? Why am I a half-ass resolver? Is it the resolutions I make? Do they not matter enough to me? Maybe. I don’t care much about my weight as long as I’m healthy. I exercise every day (laughing counts, right?) I don’t have in-laws, so that’s out. I haven’t lived long enough in my house to make a mess of the garage. Yet. No kids either (unless you count my two four-legged-furry ones that speak dog. And I don’t really yell at them often enough to make that a resolution). I eat fruit, but more chocolate—and that will simply never change. I don’t care how long I live; the chocolate stays.

Is it the lack of accountability? Possibly. They’re my resolutions. No one else knows about them. So, if I don’t follow through…who will be the worse for it? Really not a single person. I can already hear some of you saying, “YOU! You will be the worse for it.” To those nay-sayers, I reply, “not really.” Refer to the paragraph above. The promises I’ve made haven’t mattered enough to me.

And there it is. My “ah-hah” moment: the answer to the question ‘why?’

I haven’t cared enough about the resolutions that I’ve made. Of course, being held accountable to someone (or many many someones) doesn’t hurt either.

And so came along this blog. I’m picking resolutions that matter to me—pledges I’ve made through the years to live my life completely and do the things that terrify me, make me laugh, seem impossible, and help me find peace—and asking myself, and you, to hold me accountable.

I will pick a resolution from the list, in random order, and do it. I have a year to complete all of them. Some will be easier than others, some more costly, some more frightening. But, they will all be done. And I will write about each one, complete with pictures as proof. I make that promise here. Now. To you. And more importantly, to me.

Goodbye half-ass resolver! THIS is my New Years RESOLUTION!

Here it goes! Thank you for coming along for the ride!

-PM